Below are the 4 most recent journal entries recorded in Leigh's LiveJournal:

Sunday, June 22nd, 2003
10:46 pm	I think I'm Old enough.... AHHHHHHHH...Ok so, I love my family. They are good people and I consider myself lucky that I have people that love me and that I love back. But my mom, GOD...sometimes she just drives me crazy. Especially now, when there is all this talk about where I'm going to college. Nothing I ever do is good enough for the woman! I do the fucking grocery shopping now because I felt bad because she works so much and so late. But she always critizes it because I "don't buy in bulk" well i don't buy in bulk because I've never done this stuff before...I don't know of Im buyuing the right things or not. Why can't she just appreciate it? Then there are my grades...point blank I screwed myself into the fround my freshman and sophmore years...for reasons I don't want to get into. I took my self down to a 2.8 GPA...but this year...I don't know how but I brought my GPA to a 3.7. She is happy for like 2 seconds than its back to what I'm not doing right. But tonite when I got home 2 minutes ago, she was talking with me because I had asked her if I could still babysit for my aunt the monday when were going to be at reunion. She thought I meant come home sunday night then go back up monday night. What I meant was stay home saturday, sunday , monday and then come up tuesday. She was just like no. She was like its a family camp and we will be there as a family. I HATE IT THERE. My best friend Elise won't be there the entire week. So what am I going to be without DOUBLE?...You can't have DOUBLE TROUBLE without the DOUBLE. I mean for real...can you picture me camping???????...OK so air conditioned trailor with cable and running water isn't exactly camping but its damn close. The camp has really gone down hill...its alot mre boring now! I might just say screw her and stay home...but she'll probably make me go anyway. But what is really pissing me off is I'm 17 years old...old enough to decide if I want to do something or not. I go to church pretty much every sunday...even though I hate it and would rather be in school, but I don't have a choice. She wonders why I want to go to Arizona, Nevada or California for college...to get away from this. I guarantee when I am 18, she will still be telling me what I have to do...Like when I come home at breaks or duroing the summer I will HAVE to go to church because..."its a family thing". OK thats my ranting for now....oh and for those people who read to much into things...I'm not bitching about what a shitty life I have becaue I don't have a shitty life at all but sometimes I need to let it all out before I say something I will regret later. Current Mood: drained Current Music: Why Not~Hilary Duff (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, June 19th, 2003
9:38 pm	MY FEET HURT OK, so yeah my feet hurt after working there last night, but I think that they just got numb by like 3am and today oh my god!!! They hurt!!! I bet Josh and Brian are still laughing at me! I have so many bruises on my arms from working there!! Never again!! For like the next few weeks I'm gonna wear very high neck shirts just to make up for last night!!. YAY school's out but major bummer because I'm gonna be gone like all summer again. Last summer was fun and all but I need a little time for my friends. This summer will be no different except I am staying in the United States...I think...I hope this thing between Ash, Alli, Bri and Missy ends soon! They are all my friends and I don't want them to be fighting!! Alli~if I don't talk to you have fun in Germany!!! Send me a post card!!...lol...Well I should go get ready...they'll be here soon!! Current Mood: ditzy Current Music: Jennifer Lopez (Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 28th, 2003
7:53 am	Oh Boys OK, before I even start wrinting I want it known that no one can respond to this unless they can say something nice. I've had enough of a beat down for a few days. So the entire reasn I started going out with Mike agani in the first place was because Josh and Anthony walked up just as he asked be adn well you know me I needed to make them mad so I said yes. But I have been feeling really bad about it lately, so yesterday I broke up with him...and hey what do you know it was for the right reasns and she still yelled at me. I've never actually been really hurt or upset by what a guy says to me but he really went off the wall. The was the usual, "you are such a bitch", "Queen of the underworld", "Ice Princess", oh and the biggie...did you know that I'm the girl in high school that every guy knows but not in public. Oh yeah...major ouch. He really didn't have a chance to say anything else because I started to cry an left, but I'm sure he would have if I had stuck around. The only problem is in some ways he is right, but the other problem is now its going to be worse...its bad enough when I'm not dating anyone and the guys give me shit but when I have recently brokenup with one one of them its 10 times worse...and I'm not really in the frame of mind to deal with it...in the past when I have tried to ignore it, it gets worse until i deal with it and eventually forgive them...I know that i should deal with it now and get it over with but if I did now I would be open and i would let what they say hurt me and thats the first rule of war don't open yourself for an attack unless you can dish it back and harder...and right now I can't do that. Ok, I'm done now...TTYL Current Mood: exhausted Current Music: the boyz playing monopoly (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 21st, 2003
8:48 am	My First Journal Entry Ok, so here's the deal! This is my first ever entry and I don't want to spend the entire time bitching about whatever. But please...tell him to LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!!...Now that thats over with we can talk about the Prom video...interesting....they included the whole fight...ahhhhh....and the look on his face when me and kelly were in the pool...priceless!!!!!! Now I'm in conflix and bored as ever....the game is over and now we are "debriefing", so now that I have this journal what am I supposed to write? Ok now I have to bitch again...why is he back so soon and why is he back here????? I mean come on...can't I have a few months of peace and quiet before he decides to come back and make my life a living hell????? Sooooo....well....not much is really happening...I went to Windsor this weekend...lotsa fun!!!...did some tanning while the boyz played baseball...in mama's copnvertable that was mine for the weekend while daddy was in Latvia and my car was at the airport. So thats fun...Sean and Nathan and Brian were as annoying as ever...ever time I fell asleep they would come and scare me and tickle me and mess up my hair...jerks!!! but thats ok they will pay for it soon I'm sure!! Well thats all for now...TTFN Current Mood: annoyed Current Music: Weisserman's Voice and he tells 3rd hour abour their final!! (Comment on this)